(Part 1 here) I didn't realize how much time I spent thinking about the things I was afraid of instead of living. Constantly reminding yourself about what you "can't" do, is exhausting. This is something I'm still working on every day. It starts with taking a looking at myself carefully, thinking, "why do I react to these things this say?" or " Why am I hesitant with this idea?" I try to take on one of these issues at a time.
The main issue with me is I don't want to be judged for anything. But it's going to happen. Whatever you do, if someone sees it, they can criticize you for it. But it's important to realize that what other people think of you isn't your business. Those are their thoughts, and they never have the whole story. Even if you could explain it to them, it wouldn't be worth it.
At first, when I started posting more, I had some anxiety about it. I started thinking about all the people that would be watching it and what they thought. I was thinking, what if they see it but don't add a like. What if they stop watching part-way through my video because they aren't interested. But it soon became much easier once I realized that it doesn't matter. I know that when I put a video online, there will be people who hate it. There may even be people who laugh at it. But if I like it, I'm going to put it online anyway.
Everyone in the world is different, and they are allowed to have their different opinions. I don't need to be hurt by them, so I won't think about them. Even if there are thousands of people bashing me, I need to remember that they don't need to affect my life. When that's hard, there's a quote I love! "If you can't beat the fear, just do it, scared."